4. Wednesday 30th of September 11:38PM - Blue

Dear Friend,
I haven't spilt any ink today meaning I didn't spill my words out by writing poetry today.
But, I thought I would tell you how the last day of September is and what it has made me feel...
Since, I love analysing feelings through out moments with anything in a art form and today;
my art form is writing on a blog. How ironic.

Today, I felt blue which was a good thing.
In your head it probably meant something entirely different, but Blue is my favourite colour, so I doubt it would be negative unless I was currently feeling that (which I am not).
As you may or not know, I just started my first year studying Media at College and, I am still getting used to new people and new things which takes me a while to understand and get comfortable.
College started very fast, and then slow today. I was in one of those moods that I was completely tired, but full of energy which made no sense to how the whole entire day ended so quickly.
However, this day made me appreciate what I have in my life. I was feeling very calm and collective which reacted on me in a positive way. Sometimes my tiredness reacts on my mental state and changes the mood I'm in, but today was an all rounded positive which makes me very happy.

This day was a reflection of my whole entire life.
(In my head)
It made me realise that what I currently have with my new friends, my old friends and my family which yes, it does include my boyfriend. Obviously. It made me think "Wow, this is a good life"
and I am glad to be alive and breathing.

But, I guess it also means goodbye September. It was nice to have your company, and such.
See you next year and hello to new beginnings (again!)

Love, always
Elisa

3. A work of art.

A poem, that I think is meant to be read out loud written by myself.

When you think of love...
What comes to your head?

What can I say,
being in love is not dead. I said
"This is love, my friend!"

I have never felt like this before
until I saw your eyes deciding if they should look into mine.
Yet, they shine constantly defeating the sun.

We laid on the grass, with much class.
Better than a wine glass.

We kissed while the clouds were in bliss.
Man.
It was blissful.

It was like the texture of our tongues were taking us to a different universe, but we created it.
It was ours.

I looked at you while we were laying down;
I could see the colours of the oceans in your eyes
and how you matched with everything around us.
I blushed, but did not shush.

Your hands were silky across my skin...

I leaned in, and felt your velvet kisses.
I could feel every single part of you attached to my body and I finally realised that it was art.

You are my art.
My love

2. My favourite poem

if i ever push you away,
i don't really mean to.
when i tell you i don't want to talk about it
i do, i am just looking for the right words.
give me a minute, and if i can tell you; i will.
i try to be a struggling mix of real and perfect at the same time.
at the moment, i am working on the ratio.
when i get really quiet sometimes,
it is because i have too much to say
i have thought of too many things to tell you,
all at once,
and i don't know what to say first.
i get immaturely jealous of anyone
who gets to see you on a daily basis.
i miss you really easily.
but i also like that we can be apart
and we are both okay. space is good, too.
i love the way we love some of the same things
and i love how we love entirely different things.
my head is a complicated pile of thoughts,
and fears, and cravings, and dreams
and this tangled up nostalgia for the past
and somehow, the future.
i am flawed and i am human and i am broken
and i am trying. and i am one person and i am two hands
and i am one heart.
and i love you.
and i am so glad you are here.

_____________________________________________________

it brought tears to my eyes.
it's beautiful.

1. I am me. Me, myself and I.

Dear Friend,
So, my lovely boyfriend suggested I start a new blog based on my life and myself.

Welcome to my blog!
I know, it's currently empty but, I am hoping to fill this life journal based blog with spilled ink (hopefully)...That's what I'm aiming for.
I want to learn more about life, and myself through out this blogging journey and in all honesty, I haven't written a blog since 2 years ago which was on my fashion based blog.

Who am I?
That is a question we all ask ourselves, but here are some pretty basic facts you should know:

1. My parents decided to name me 'Elisa' after the French classic film
2. I am bilingual (French and English)
3. I have a cleft lip and palette
4. I've been living in England for 10 years
5. I refer myself to a poet and a filmmaker although, I'm still learning.
6. I'm obsessed with colours since they relate to me as feelings
7. I collect crystals and train tickets
8. I adore nature
9. My favourite author is John Green
10. My favourite artists are 'Arctic Monkeys' and 'Lana Del Rey'
11. I am in love with old vibes
12. I colour coordinate everything in my life even my Instagram theme
13. I am currently in a relationship with the best person I could possibly be with.
14. My favourite number is 6
15. I believe in aliens
16. I like to meditate, even though I haven't done that in months
17. I have a rescue dog called Alfie
18. I only have one sibling
19. My favourite artist is Vincent Van Gogh
20. I can't go anywhere without my phone or a pint of milk in my hand. 

and that is it, for now. 

Also, every post I make will start with "Dear Friend", so that will take some getting used to.

I hope you enjoyed.

Love always, 

Elisa